Before I got pregnant, I wasn't totally happy with my body. I'm tall and have a large frame but I also eat what I want and had a few pounds to lose. When I got pregnant I really tried to keep myself under control and not just eat whatever I wanted. I've done fairly well with this so far and have gained about 25 pounds which isn't great but I'm not totally unhappy with it. I'll probably end up gaining the top of the 25-35 pounds my doctor suggested. That being said, I love my belly. It's big and covered with stretch marks but it reassures me that our baby is growing and hopefully thriving.
I haven't felt bad about my pregnant body until today. I went to Target for a couple of things and decided to try on dresses to get an idea of what I like since I'll need something to wear to my shower and my mother in law's wedding. I found two sleeveless tops that I like but noticed that my arms have gotten bigger. The dresses I tried on just weren't flattering. Then I went to Motherhood to find new bras. I knew I need to be fitted because the ones I've been wearing are very uncomfortable. I wasn't prepared for the size though. 40F. 40F?!?!?! WTF!?!?! Of course they only carry underwire free in that size and they just don't make me feel supported.
So I found one bra that came in a 40E and it fit well enough to get for now. It's more comfortable than what I have been wearing so I got it to hold me over until I can get a bra that actually fits.
Then I tried on dresses. What a disaster. I felt like they all highlighted my arms or just made me look very wide. The shorter style dresses were all above my knees which just didn't flatter me. There was one full length dress that looked ok but it was really casual. I have time since my shower isn't until July 17, but it made me a big nervous that I didn't find anything that I liked and was appropriate. It's mostly worrisome because there are very few places around here to get maternity clothes. It's basically Target, Motherhood, JCPenney, or Kohls and I've looked everywhere except for Kohls so far.
Alright, enough complaining. I'm gonna go cuddle with my puppy dog and my husband.
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Saturday, June 18, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Three in one day
Ok, I've had time to reflect a little bit on my day.
1) Hopefully my brainfart doesn't mess up my 1 hour glucose screening results, they will let me know how it went in the next day or two. Good news: they think the baby is head down now!
2) I'm very upset about the whole baby name thing but I have no one to blame or be mad at. I'm disappointed and sad that we can't use the name anymore. Some might say to go ahead and use it but this situation is different. Probably the most significant reason is the fact that my cousin's wife and I used to be best friends. We met in 9th grade and were the best of friends for about 10 years. We had our ups and downs but we ended up growing apart and had a big falling out about 2 years ago. Shortly after our falling out she started dating my cousin. My family is big, 21 grandchildren with all but 2 living in Syracuse, but we see each other a lot. They had a quick-ish relationship and got engaged about 2 months after Bill and I did and got married this past July. Things are awkward to say the least between us. She has not earned many brownie points with my family and not many of us like her. I can't use the same name as them. I'd feel like I was trying to steal their thunder or something.
I know that we will find another name and that the important thing is that our baby is healthy. He will be our son regardless of what name we choose. We'll end up liking the name we choose better because it will be his name.
I know all this but it just hurts so bad. She and I have a major history of her screwing me over and I feel like she did it again, even though she doesn't know it.
I told my sister and my parents about this and that's it. No one else will know. I don't want to make their exciting news about me and I don't want to give her the satisfaction of knowing that she got to me again.
It's time to move on and go back to the drawing board.
Our baby is no longer, Owen.
1) Hopefully my brainfart doesn't mess up my 1 hour glucose screening results, they will let me know how it went in the next day or two. Good news: they think the baby is head down now!
2) I'm very upset about the whole baby name thing but I have no one to blame or be mad at. I'm disappointed and sad that we can't use the name anymore. Some might say to go ahead and use it but this situation is different. Probably the most significant reason is the fact that my cousin's wife and I used to be best friends. We met in 9th grade and were the best of friends for about 10 years. We had our ups and downs but we ended up growing apart and had a big falling out about 2 years ago. Shortly after our falling out she started dating my cousin. My family is big, 21 grandchildren with all but 2 living in Syracuse, but we see each other a lot. They had a quick-ish relationship and got engaged about 2 months after Bill and I did and got married this past July. Things are awkward to say the least between us. She has not earned many brownie points with my family and not many of us like her. I can't use the same name as them. I'd feel like I was trying to steal their thunder or something.
I know that we will find another name and that the important thing is that our baby is healthy. He will be our son regardless of what name we choose. We'll end up liking the name we choose better because it will be his name.
I know all this but it just hurts so bad. She and I have a major history of her screwing me over and I feel like she did it again, even though she doesn't know it.
I told my sister and my parents about this and that's it. No one else will know. I don't want to make their exciting news about me and I don't want to give her the satisfaction of knowing that she got to me again.
It's time to move on and go back to the drawing board.
Our baby is no longer, Owen.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
I just need a doctor
I had an appointment with my gyno today as a follow up to the spotting I had last week. The plan was to meet with the doctor one last time then he would refer me to an OB. I asked around, did some research, and decided on a doctor that sounded great. The nurse made the call to refer me and found out the doctor I spent so much time researching and falling in love with isn't taking any new OB patients. So frustrating.
On top of finding out that this OB won't take me, while on the phone the nurse referred to me as a high risk OB patient. I know that is only because I had some spotting but it was like a punch in the stomach to hear that I'm considered high risk.
So after the doctor I went over my school district's central offices to add Bill to my health insurance since his is changing January 1 and it will suck then. I meant to do it before today but felt so crappy earlier in the week. So I get to central offices and it's closed. Completely. No one there. I mean, I know I'm on vacation and all the schools are closed but why is downtown closed? It's not New Years Eve even, it's December 30! Ugh so frustrating! I guess that's what I get for procrastinating...
On top of finding out that this OB won't take me, while on the phone the nurse referred to me as a high risk OB patient. I know that is only because I had some spotting but it was like a punch in the stomach to hear that I'm considered high risk.
So after the doctor I went over my school district's central offices to add Bill to my health insurance since his is changing January 1 and it will suck then. I meant to do it before today but felt so crappy earlier in the week. So I get to central offices and it's closed. Completely. No one there. I mean, I know I'm on vacation and all the schools are closed but why is downtown closed? It's not New Years Eve even, it's December 30! Ugh so frustrating! I guess that's what I get for procrastinating...
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