Three in one day

Ok, I've had time to reflect a little bit on my day.

1) Hopefully my brainfart doesn't mess up my 1 hour glucose screening results, they will let me know how it went in the next day or two. Good news: they think the baby is head down now!

2) I'm very upset about the whole baby name thing but I have no one to blame or be mad at. I'm disappointed and sad that we can't use the name anymore. Some might say to go ahead and use it but this situation is different. Probably the most significant reason is the fact that my cousin's wife and I used to be best friends. We met in 9th grade and were the best of friends for about 10 years. We had our ups and downs but we ended up growing apart and had a big falling out about 2 years ago. Shortly after our falling out she started dating my cousin. My family is big, 21 grandchildren with all but 2 living in Syracuse, but we see each other a lot. They had a quick-ish relationship and got engaged about 2 months after Bill and I did and got married this past July. Things are awkward to say the least between us. She has not earned many brownie points with my family and not many of us like her. I can't use the same name as them. I'd feel like I was trying to steal their thunder or something.

I know that we will find another name and that the important thing is that our baby is healthy. He will be our son regardless of what name we choose. We'll end up liking the name we choose better because it will be his name.

I know all this but it just hurts so bad. She and I have a major history of her screwing me over and I feel like she did it again, even though she doesn't know it.

I told my sister and my parents about this and that's it. No one else will know. I don't want to make their exciting news about me and I don't want to give her the satisfaction of knowing that she got to me again.

It's time to move on and go back to the drawing board.

Our baby is no longer, Owen.