I'm going to be selfish for a minute

My uncle Bob is running for District Councilor this year. He's a great man who I support 100%. Since he announced that he is running, I have stuffed and addressed envelopes and volunteered to work a major fundraising event on Tuesday. As the summer goes on, I'm sure there will be plenty of other opportunities to help him out. The one thing I didn't want to do though, is go door to door to collect signatures for the ballot petition. I really don't want to do it. I get anxiety just thinking about it. So when his campaign manager (my cousin) asked for volunteers, I didn't sign up. I didn't feel guilty because I have signed up for literally everything else.

Well, Bob didn't know who signed up and who didn't and asked my dad if he thought I'd go door to door and my dad said yes. Bob showed up at my door on Thursday and said, "I heard you'd be willing to get petitions signed for me, thanks. Here are your petitions and addresses." I didn't know what to do or say. He gave me my street so at least it's close to home and a good neighborhood but I REALLY don't want to do it.

I haven't gone out yet because I didn't feel good on Friday and it rained all day today. I have until Tuesday to do it and I'm kinda freaking out. I can't do it Monday because it's my birthday and we have dinner plans and they are due Tuesday. That means I have to do it tomorrow and I'm really dreading it. To the point where I'm working myself up and crying as I type this. I feel like a baby. I feel like I should just suck it up and do it. I feel like I can't back out now. I just really don't want to do it.

Man, I am really miserable today.